Greetings brothers and sisters - I know so many are suffering. I heard a great message on Sunday, as I returned to my old church to be with my daughter and her family. I realized, I had disassociated three years ago, almost fabricating reasons to leave my church family instead of working through or dealing with a hurt. I discovered recently that the feelings of isolation come from dealing with the affects and aspects from Lyme.
I have grieved so much lost time in the past, but now realize that this is time we can seek God and focus on Him. When I focus on the losses, I miss His gains. Not sure if this makes sense, but my heart yearns wholly to find His presence in even the times when 'I feel' He has forgotten me. Learning that these are the times to push harder to see Him - while KNOWING THAT OUR FATHER FAITHFULLY PURSUES us through everything we go through.
This past week, I have had increasing herx reactions, which truly I am rejoicing because I sense the 'evil' bacteria breaking up and moving through and out of my system. It's been a harsh 36 hours; like I have had chemotherapy. My prayer is to be overwhelmed by His presence so I can make it through work, and continue to rest when I can. Knowing that my 'fight' is nothing compared to His fight for me.
I just wanted to share some thoughts. Brethren, Jesus is before the throne, pleading for us, standing up for us and praying for us to KNOW HIS MERCIES, GRACE AND FAVOR.
Much love... praying for you.
Isaiah 61 Amplified Bible (AMP)Exaltation of the Afflicted61 The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me,Because the Lord has anointed and commissioned meTo bring good news to the humble and afflicted;He has sent me to bind up [the wounds of] the brokenhearted,To proclaim release [from confinement and condemnation] to the [physical and spiritual] captivesAnd freedom to prisoners,2 To proclaim [a]the favorable year of the Lord,[b]And the day of vengeance and retribution of our God,To comfort all who mourn,3 To grant to those who mourn in Zion the following:To give them a [c]turban instead of dust [on their heads, a sign of mourning],The oil of joy instead of mourning,The garment [expressive] of praise instead of a disheartened spirit.So they will be called the trees of righteousness [strong and magnificent, distinguished for integrity, justice, and right standing with God],The planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified.4 Then they will rebuild the ancient ruins,They will raise up and restore the former desolations;And they will renew the ruined cities,The desolations (deserted settlements) of many generations.5 Strangers will stand and feed your flocks,And foreigners will be your farmers and your vinedressers.6 But you shall be called the priests of the Lord;People will speak of you as the ministers of our God.You will eat the wealth of nations,And you will boast of their riches.7 Instead of your [former] shame you will have a [d]double portion;And instead of humiliation your people will shout for joy over their portion.Therefore in their land they will possess double [what they had forfeited];Everlasting joy will be theirs.8 For I, the Lord, love justice;I hate robbery with [e]a burnt offering.And I will faithfully reward them,And make an everlasting covenant with them.9 Then their offspring will be known among the nations,And their descendants among the peoples.All who see them [in their prosperity] will recognize and acknowledge themThat they are the people whom the Lord has blessed.10 I will rejoice greatly in the Lord,My soul will exult in my God;For He has clothed me with garments of salvation,He has covered me with a robe of righteousness,As a bridegroom puts on a [f]turban,And as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.11 For as the earth brings forth its sprouts,And as a garden causes what is sown in it to spring up,So the Lord God will [most certainly] cause righteousness and justice and praiseTo spring up before all the nations [through the power of His word].