Wednesday, February 25, 2015

Thankful Life - February 25, 2015


As I sit here today, contemplating so many things in this life – my family, friends and those I have yet to meet – I realize how very fortunate I am, and how ungrateful I can be. My life has contained a plethora of unnoticed blessings, either from an unwillingness to look outside of myself, or stubbornness to be unwilling in general. I am not sharing this to be a “downer”, but to publicly note that I recognize that changes in me still need to occur. I am truly a work in progress, admittedly… “a work in progress”, but it’s when I recognize God’s part is to pursue me, it’s my job to PURSUE HIM EVEN MORE DILIGENTLY.

"The Lord is my portion." ~Psalms 119:57a

I have focused so much on "researching" this illness, that I have gotten off-track with the true goal. This past week, I have worked very hard to re-gear and rest in the knowledge of my Savior, His healing (that I have already received), His comfort and His plans... not just for 'my life', but HIS PERFECT PLAN to be received by others. No matter what is going on in our lives, in my life, I must remain in pursuit of His will. I must trust that all that "is" will be fleshed out and I can one day see some kind of assemblance of the outcome. My part is small, but the affects of His work in me is huge. I still have questions... I still have needs... yet, He is the whole answer and has already provided for me. How do I see this in every day life? How do I pursue and reap all that has been given in full?

"Abraham called the name of that place Jehovah-Jireh, the LORD is my provider. As it is said to this day, “In the LORD’s mountain it will be provided.”" ~Genesis 22:14

Although I tire and become weary, more than I am prepared for... or desire, I will not be downtrodden, for He is my everything and my peace in all things. In my exhaustion, I find that my motivation is at an all time low and life just seems to be disrupted in so many ways. Although I have had many moments of being overwhelmed by research, decisions and 'getting through the day', I have found so much joy in the moments when I TRULY SEEK MY FATHER's presence. He TRULY sustains me through it all. I can look not at the individual moments, but on the time that passed and I saw Him in those moments.

"Have you not known? have you not heard? The everlasting God, The LORD, the Creator of the ends of the earth, doesn’t faint, neither is weary; there is no searching of his understanding. He gives power to the faint; and to him who has no might he increases strength. Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall: but those who wait for The LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; they shall walk, and not faint." ~Isaiah 40:28-31

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Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Thankful Life - February 10, 2015


Laying it all down. And picking it all up with the strength of my Guide.

"I am fearfully and wonderfully made, and although God has allowed this illness… This pain… These trials, him greatly aware that I am loved, treasured and valued beyond reason and comprehension. Only in God's Will in that moment to moment strength of the Holy Spirit and because I am His, I am healing."

This little mantra came about while we were at my last doctor's appointment, my amazing daughter was with me. I had an excruciating headache by the time I got to his office, so he introduced me to chakra. Immediately the bells and whistles and red flags went off in my head, and the familiar motivating fear (of the unknown entity) came in. He proceeded to show me the"Chakra" points and dialogue his spiritual version of the mantra. Every part of my body was uncomfortable, my head and it's pounding, was also spinning in a million directions. "Lord give me the strength to review and correct and not concede, or agree" were the words that ran through my head. My doctor is very kind and compassionate… And the words "I know you have your own beliefs, and you will put your words to this".

On the way home from the doctors, my daughter and I came up with these words… And so I worked on this little exercise praying before hand, and hitting the chakra points.

One of the challenges is I was supposed to do "this thing" every time I had pain… I started with the headaches, and after many attempts over a couple of days, my heart seemed to bleed… my Spirit was grieving. It wasn't until this morning's quiet time, that I realized once again… It's not that we should try to wrap God around what the world gives us. We are to be Christ-like as we live out this life. Start with Christ and not accept the things of this world. It is not spirituality, it is wholly relationship… wholly coming to Him!

So my prayer today is that I can be strong in every moment. As I look for answers with this illness, I will be talking to lots of doctors, and medical professionals moving forward; many of who are very "spiritually" driven. I have to be firm in what I know, what has brought me this far so far is ONLY BY the grace of God, and His abilities. And only God will make me capable to accept His work through this healing process… His healing!

Today, is the day you step out... believe... forgive... hope...

May God's insights and strength be always present in your thoughts. May His light and promises be at "top of mind", and the Holy Spirit be sought at every moment that is doubtful, resentful, hopeless. He is for you. Let our faith Father grow and mature daily, and our hearts rejoice in this process. Let us believe without seeing (Heb. 11:1). Let us forgive those who hurt us, and learn to let go (Ephesians 4:31-32). Let us grow in Your Word daily Father and know YOU ARE FOR US. That there is nothing we need to do, because He DID IT ALL. "When Jesus had received the sour wine, He said, It is finished! And He bowed His head and gave up His spirit." -John 19:30 (Amplified Bible)


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Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Thankful Life - January 28, 2015



It has been a busy seven days - one with every emotion and "feeling". From a couple tough days at work, to being tapped out emotionally and physically exhausting, followed up by a memorial service for a family friend. And all throughout, I know that God was there... and is here now!
Help me to see the broken through my own brokenness Father.. and show compassion, not contention or judgment. As my own heart breaks, let it also break for others. LORD, thank You for pursuing me and my faithful heart to be YET MORE faithful.

I hate conflict - I hate the unnecessary efforts of others to create it and escalate it ... just saying.
LORD help me with my ability to stay calm today.

We cannot be 'concerned' with what others think, or even do. We set our sights on Jesus and depend on the Holy Spirit to move what He moves... when we are wrong, admit it, apologize, change the behavior and move on... dwell in the possibilities of change - change of circumstance, change of heart, change of perceptions.

As I mentioned, my husband and I went to a memorial for a friend today. He died on December 26th of last year… He was 81, he was a very private man with a few friends. He came from a very different lifestyle that I personally cannot comprehend, and do not agree with… But I do know that God finds a way. In his bedroom I saw the Bible on the dresser, and his longtime friend from the same lifestyle, said that our friend read the Bible all the time. HOPE... We can live in the hope that God pursues us until we take our last breath! We can be encouraged that God is God, especially since sin is sin!

I hope I can shine His love in His strength more often... it's a fine line and many defining moments to love anyone in their sin... I was thinking about this for so long... we all sin, and sin of the flesh is sin of the flesh (which about covers most sin). The enemy's drawing of us, our own disobedience can lead to horrendous sin, but God loves us and always goes back for the one that has strayed... I pray for our protection against such atrocities, but they will come... the temptation will be put before us... and sin will occur. That is why we must stay in the WORD... seek Him, Praise Him... and be moved by Him in our every moment.

"For none of us lives for ourselves alone, and none of us dies for ourselves alone. If we live, we live for the Lord; and if we die, we die for the Lord. So, whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord. For this very reason, Christ died and returned to life so that he might be the Lord of both the dead and the living. You, then, why do you judge your brother or sister? Or why do you treat them with contempt? For we will all stand before God’s judgment seat.  It is written: “‘As surely as I live,’ says the Lord, ‘every knee will bow before me; every tongue will acknowledge God.’” " ~Romans 14:7-11 (New International Version)

Heavenly Father we just come to you today and we pray for Your understanding of things. We ask for the faith to do what we have the power to do… And trust that You will do the rest. Help us Father to submit it, to give it up, whatever it is. We pray for strength and endurance for those with illnesses, emotionally, physically and most of all the spiritual battles that are faced daily. It's in Your strength we stand and trust… And bow. We ask for the Holy Spirit to guide and to correct, to help us grow in the knowledge that is Yours. Let it be your will Lord Father… Your will, in Christ Jesus we pray.

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Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Thankful Life - January 21, 2015


This journey has me thankful and grateful. 

I am definitely not taking this "lying down"... I am soaking in my LORD's grace and mercies daily... and I trust His healing... my body is sick, but my soul IS HEALED... I have been able to use my faith while sitting with my doctor, in the waiting room, and through my Lamenting... God does allow sickness, along with His healing. My treasure is in His Word in the strength I get to hang onto every day.

"By His Stripes" is a soul answer, which I am so grateful for that "by His stripes" I am His for eternity and I am assured of a place in my Father's house... "pick up my mat" has not been decreed in this time, yet... YET, I am expectant that in God's time, through His strength and favor, change will be seen and used for HIS GLORY. I am excited to see Him work.

Job's pleading did not 'warrant' sickness, Paul's asking for the removal of the thorn was heard and answered by our mighty and faithful God, in His time and by His will. I trust my God and believe His will for my life, including this illness.

My research, my preparation has led to many conversations I would not have had otherwise to witness, pray for... AND SEE GOD IN AMAZING WAYS...

I have not given up... have not laid down to die with this.

GOD HAS healing for us me… But we cannot dictate what healing I will receive or that we even deserve it because I chose Him. I will not pretend to have faith like that. But I will be expectant in this life. My God has amazing things for me, including healing.

Daily I am thankful for that assurance, and daily I thank Him for His promises. I am even thankful for the well meaning friends and family who are determined to help me with my faith. It gives me great opportunity to seek my father more, and more diligently! All I want is to pursue god's will for my life… Whatever that endurance is for this to be done, let it be. Father God help me to not have a broken heart for the words of somebody else. Help me to seek Your Word. To fill the void in the gap that this world, illness, doubt, disappointment, Satan tries to deliver.

I am Yours! And because of that I am a force to be reckoned with. Obviously, the Holy Spirit is the force to be reckoned with when it comes to me, a child of God, daughter of the King!

My heart laments... and my soul is confirmed. 

How long with this take? 
As long as it takes.
What will I learn? 
Whatever the Lord deems necessary for this time.
How can I endure? 
Only by the grace and mercies of my Heavenly Father will I endure.

The Year of the Lord’s FavorISAIAH 61 1 The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me,    because the Lord has anointed me    to proclaim good news to the poor.He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,    to proclaim freedom for the captives    and release from darkness for the prisoners,[a]2 to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor    and the day of vengeance of our God,to comfort all who mourn,3     and provide for those who grieve in Zion—to bestow on them a crown of beauty    instead of ashes,the oil of joy    instead of mourning,and a garment of praise    instead of a spirit of despair.They will be called oaks of righteousness,    a planting of the Lord    for the display of his splendor.4 They will rebuild the ancient ruins    and restore the places long devastated;they will renew the ruined cities    that have been devastated for generations.5 Strangers will shepherd your flocks;    foreigners will work your fields and vineyards.6 And you will be called priests of the Lord,    you will be named ministers of our God.You will feed on the wealth of nations,    and in their riches you will boast.7 Instead of your shame    you will receive a double portion,and instead of disgrace    you will rejoice in your inheritance.And so you will inherit a double portion in your land,    and everlasting joy will be yours.8 “For I, the Lord, love justice;    I hate robbery and wrongdoing.In my faithfulness I will reward my people    and make an everlasting covenant with them.9 Their descendants will be known among the nations    and their offspring among the peoples.All who see them will acknowledge    that they are a people the Lord has blessed.”10 I delight greatly in the Lord;    my soul rejoices in my God.For he has clothed me with garments of salvation    and arrayed me in a robe of his righteousness,as a bridegroom adorns his head like a priest,    and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.11 For as the soil makes the sprout come up    and a garden causes seeds to grow,so the Sovereign Lord will make righteousness    and praise spring up before all nations.
I cannot fathom the love my Father in heaven has for me, and for each and every one of us. How much more He loves me, and us that we can even begin to imagine. He came and lived so we can have an example... He suffered and died so we can live in eternity with Him. This life is temporary, my home is in my Father's house... not now, but in His time. So today, I live to the fullest, exploiting my faith and embracing the gifts He has given to do so.

My heart overflows with the thought of You LORD.


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Friday, January 16, 2015

Lyme Journey - January 16, 2015

Just a little update (sorry for redundancy)...

I am eternally grateful for a doctor who believes me...

Round 1 (round "who's counting" of this entire process) of "new" doctor appointments done, and it went well. Nearly two hours going over history. Lots of tests - 14 tubes of blood drawn.

Results so far: Most of the blood work looks good (but that is the typical challenge... more in-depth panels need to be done); positive for hypo-thyroid (was positive for hyper 4 years ago), two positive viral and one positive bacterial findings so far - tests do not differentiate whether past/present infections, and post menopausal which I knew, but other docs said "not possible" wink emoticon!

My follow-up (2nd) appointment is next Thursday (1/22); we will go through what we have, and determine what is next (more tests probably, or find the Lyme Literate doc). I am currently not on any protocol or medications, and currently maintain my full-time work schedule.

I have completely implemented and have been faithfully following a very strict diet (no sugar, or anything that converts to sugar, incl. fruit, simple/complex carbs, plus no stevia, honey or agave either). I sleep at least 9 hours each night during the week, and 10-12 hours on weekend nights.

I had three really good days this week (after having the worst month in this 6 month cycle) - so very grateful. Thankfully, the sharp shooting pains have subsided somewhat and I am kinda settling in to a new normal - at least until the next round.
- Daily, I experience muscle pain, soreness and weakness; lower body aching, exhaustion (the kind that feels like you have a blanket over your head and you can't even lift that weight); stomach issues, eye irritation and vision changes, low blood pressure and freezing hands and core. Stiffness in the neck, lower back, hands and feet with arthritis-type pain. I often drop things or wince when picking things up. Sometimes it's very noisy...
- Almost daily, often I have pressure or migraine headaches, burning skin and burning like embers through my veins, facial numbness and tingling in both arms and legs. And bumping into things can be excruciating.

Facebook is a great way to connect with me, the phone is still pretty taxing for me, as I get so exhausted. I appreciate your prayers and love... Please pray for the following: finding the right Lyme doc who will take insurance, or that the insurance will pre-authorize treatment, for my stamina and attitude.

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Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Thankful Life - January 13, 2015

Today, it's more than amazing grace... it's amazing mercies too.

Thankful for so many things... Knowing God is the light of my existence, especially when so much seems to darken this walk; life delivers many things and we have the opportunity to conquer it all when we accept God's never ending gifts. All of which we can glean in the Word. This week, I have been reading through Isaiah 40… You cannot help but be encouraged. I am encouraged!

I have felt a bit desert marooned, but that's okay. I have many moments to "be still" and reflect... to seek God.. to pursue the love of my Savior... to trust and see my life executed with the guide of the Holy Spirit... it is not perfect - I struggle, yet it is a wonderful journey. I am heading into my sixth month of this tough cycle on this Lyme journey; there is the normal physical pain, new symptoms and so many questions... but God shows me He is here with instruction, comfort and answers. I have had a bit of a reprieve these past few days, respite from the severe pain and little spurts of energy have helped tremendously.

Last night was a night of rest and soaking. As I listened to God's Word and some beautiful "spontaneous worship" music allowing it all to soak in, I melted into the LORD's presence. I just sat and listened and invited the peace and comfort to take hold. It was a great evening to allow the light to not only flow over and through me, but to overflow my heart and mind with God's assurance that He is always here. 

I love this... ISAIAH 40:1-2
“"Comfort, O comfort My people,” says your God.“Speak kindly to Jerusalem; And call out to her, that her warfare has ended, That her iniquity has been removed, That she has received of the Lord’s hand Double for all her sins.” 
If you read on... WOW... ISAIAH 40:8
"The grass withers, the flower fades, But the word of our God stands forever."

Paying attention... HEARING what is said... ISAIAH 40:21-22
"Do you not know? Have you not heard? Has it not been declared to you from the beginning? Have you not understood from the foundations of the earth? It is He who sits above the circle of the earth,And its inhabitants are like grasshoppers, Who stretches out the heavens like a curtain, And spreads them out like a tent to dwell in."

And finally the greatest of assurances in God's Word... What say you? ISAIAH 40:31
"Yet those who wait for the Lord will gain new strength; They will mount up with wings like eagles,They will run and not get tired, They will walk and not become weary." 
(New American Standard Bible)


Heavenly Father we thank you for this day… For many, it has been a struggle… But I pray that in the midst of whatever is going on Father, we can see your grace and mercies in abundance. That we not just hang on to your promises, but we begin to live them. Lord I am speaking to myself today with this prayer. Help me to seek you more in this trial. Help me praise you more in all circumstances. Let me be ever aware to witness your amazing hope! It's in Christ Jesus we pray, Amen.

Yes, the wilderness is a place of preparation. God is with you in the wilderness, there is no doubt about it. Worship Him...and I continue to prepare by seeking my God, and giving every day to Him. My prayer is that you will too. I pray you will know God's calling into your life and seek Him diligently... wholly!

Today allow God to take you from the busyness, So that you can meet Him in the place to "rest in Him" And "be still" for His voice. This is the place to learn God's provision.

God's arms are open wide and waiting for you to come to Him. Whatever sin, whatever heartache, whatever shame or fear resides in you… Know that in an instant all of it can be lifted. Come to Jesus, repent of the sin and let go of the shame because Jesus saves.

Oh how He loves you!

SOAK IT IN. 

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Wednesday, January 7, 2015

Thankful Life - January 7, 2015

"Faith reveals itself in action…" Heard this morning on Thru the Bible Radio, J Vernon McGee


I really have been consumed with research and questions during this past 4 months. My prayer time in the morning has been worrisome, disrupted and scattered... And, what I am sensing through the Holy Spirit is that this is truly a time of talking with my heavenly Father in any way and all ways possible.  I have been told that it should be undistracted, focused and uncomplicated. I am mostly distracted generally.. and focus is almost impossible right now, and really what does uncomplicated mean? This life is complicated. This part of my journey is a mess outside of God, and because of His mercies and grace I survive nicely.

I am not a great 'waker upper' - it takes me time to snap out of the sleep and dream-like persona. So I begin my day by listening to His Word... I put on the Bible and take in the words. This morning I listened to Isaiah 42-47, and the word that popped today was "LISTEN", and my immediate thought was, "LORD God help me to listen and hear and abide."

AS I PRAY
Sometimes I sit quietly... waiting to speak until I know I can or should. But even then I want to listen, "be still", "rest in Him"... LORD, I want to seek You like this every day of my life. I just want to be real and honest... complete and engaging, so that is what I seek, what I ask of my heart, mind and actions as I go before my Abba Father. And, this morning this was my prayer.

Let us praise our Creator, our mighty God and Father. Let this be done not just on the days that are good… But every day, because He is good.

Heavenly Father I thank You this morning for the road that is much longer than I would've chosen. For the right turns that were wrong turns and the roadblocks and all that has occurred these last few years. I can look back to Your interventions, and use of my own bad decisions, as well as Your direction and confirmation. Today I want to thank You mostly for those who stand in prayer with me on this journey. I'm greatly humbled and honored to be among such a loving and caring people. Thank you for my family, because without them I might've missed seeing Your love daily. Thank You for the work in the life my husband, who has grown in to the most loving and compassionate partner. Thank You for your continuing pursuance of his heart and soul. Thank You for sanctifying my household and guiding me through many troubled waters. Father God I lift those up to You today who do not know You so they will dwell in places that you exist, but do not because they are blinded. Help those who suffer from illness, that they will be moved to do what is in their power and wholly trust You for the rest… including me LORD. Help me to see You throughout my day Lord Jesus and seek the strength of the Holy Spirit in all the moments. It's in Your Son's glorious and precious name I pray and trust. Amen.
"[ Be Imitators of God ] Therefore be imitators of God, as beloved children; and walk in love, just as Christ also loved you and gave Himself up for us, an offering and a sacrifice to God as a fragrant aroma." ~Ephesians 5:1-2 (New American Standard Bible)

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