Thursday, June 30, 2016

Prayer for Murphee, June 30, 2016


This morning, the prayer is actually shared by Murphee's mama, my baby girl, Myranda Ehlers.

"My amazing, sweet girl, where has the time gone? It seems like only yesterday that I was staring in awe at the puddle between my legs and telling your daddy, "... I think my water broke. But I'm not sure?" I was so unsure of so many things. How would I love you, like really love you in the way you needed? How would I care for you, care for a fragile and beautiful creature entirely dependent on me and me alone for nourishment and also be one of the main sources of comfort practically around the clock? How would I give and give and give again to someone I was going to meet face-to-face for the first time? I had felt you stir low in my belly, in that warm place where you wanted for nothing. I was first witness to your stretches and your hiccups. I only had to press my fingers up against the crown of your (stubborn) head gently before you would flutter a leg or wave an arm and still, still remain unchanged with your persistence to stay upright, nestled just below my heart.

But you became real and whole and tangible to me in the space of a half hour, as my middle was stretched open and more hands than I care to recollect drew you up and out into the brightness of your new world. And I cried for the disorienting love I felt and understood so suddenly that my arms were reaching before my brain could help my lips form the words. Can I have her? Can I have my baby? Is she okay? Your daddy was holding my hand and telling me yes. I was still numb from my epidural, the epidural I did not want because of the C-section I did not want, but numb or not, I knew that I wanted you.

And here we are, almost 6 months in. I am blessed beyond measure to have you. I know, without a doubt, that you were created and crafted by a loving God and grown inside me, then born and entrusted to all the people who love you and wish only the best for you and pray over you as you sleep and as you cry, as you giggle and smile and express every fleeting whim that passes through your body and mind. There are so many reasons why I know this that I will tell you some day, about the days that were hard and the thoughts that were harder and the sadness and anxiety that I had when I first found out about you. Until then, we pray that you will grow strong in your faith and firm in your stance, that your feet will draw you closer to God through every trial you face and every joyous triumph. Little girl, my sweet Murphee Josephine, we pray for you to be bold and courageous and strong and beautiful (the kind of beauty that outshines the physical), that you are kind and humble and graceful and that these things you learn by seeing an example in me, as well as others. God, help me be her example and help her see past when I fail.

My amazing, sweet girl, I love you. Happy almost 6 months."


Wednesday, June 8, 2016

Thankful Life - June 8, 2016

Fight.
Give.
Let.
Rest.
Submit.
Ponder.
Dwell.
Repent.
Heal.
Trust.
Believe.
Abide.
Release.
Break.
Love.
Express.
Allow.


Let Go.
Hold Fast.
Rest in His grace.
Trust in His purpose.
Dwell in His presence.
In Christ, Amen.


Sometimes there is so much I want to say and share, but only a word comes to mind when I write, not the intention will flow... so here it is. God, You know my heart, my pleas and Your plans. That is enough.


In the depths of my soul, my life cries out... in my every breath, Christ already responded.


"My soul yearns, yes, even pines and is homesick for the courts of the Lord; my heart and my flesh cry out and sing for joy to the living God." Psalm 84:2 (Amplified Bible, Classic Edition)

Tuesday, May 17, 2016

Thankful Life - May 17, 2016


Greetings brothers and sisters - I know so many are suffering. I heard a great message on Sunday, as I returned to my old church to be with my daughter and her family. I realized, I had disassociated three years ago, almost fabricating reasons to leave my church family instead of working through or dealing with a hurt. I discovered recently that the feelings of isolation come from dealing with the affects and aspects from Lyme.

I have grieved so much lost time in the past, but now realize that this is time we can seek God and focus on Him. When I focus on the losses, I miss His gains. Not sure if this makes sense, but my heart yearns wholly to find His presence in even the times when 'I feel' He has forgotten me. Learning that these are the times to push harder to see Him - while KNOWING THAT OUR FATHER FAITHFULLY PURSUES us through everything we go through.

This past week, I have had increasing herx reactions, which truly I am rejoicing because I sense the 'evil' bacteria breaking up and moving through and out of my system. It's been a harsh 36 hours; like I have had chemotherapy. My prayer is to be overwhelmed by His presence so I can make it through work, and continue to rest when I can. Knowing that my 'fight' is nothing compared to His fight for me.

I just wanted to share some thoughts. Brethren, Jesus is before the throne, pleading for us, standing up for us and praying for us to KNOW HIS MERCIES, GRACE AND FAVOR.

Much love... praying for you.

Isaiah 61 Amplified Bible (AMP)Exaltation of the Afflicted61 The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me,Because the Lord has anointed and commissioned meTo bring good news to the humble and afflicted;He has sent me to bind up [the wounds of] the brokenhearted,To proclaim release [from confinement and condemnation] to the [physical and spiritual] captivesAnd freedom to prisoners,To proclaim [a]the favorable year of the Lord,[b]And the day of vengeance and retribution of our God,To comfort all who mourn,To grant to those who mourn in Zion the following:To give them a [c]turban instead of dust [on their heads, a sign of mourning],The oil of joy instead of mourning,The garment [expressive] of praise instead of a disheartened spirit.So they will be called the trees of righteousness [strong and magnificent, distinguished for integrity, justice, and right standing with God],The planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified.Then they will rebuild the ancient ruins,They will raise up and restore the former desolations;And they will renew the ruined cities,The desolations (deserted settlements) of many generations.Strangers will stand and feed your flocks,And foreigners will be your farmers and your vinedressers.But you shall be called the priests of the Lord;People will speak of you as the ministers of our God.You will eat the wealth of nations,And you will boast of their riches.Instead of your [former] shame you will have a [d]double portion;And instead of humiliation your people will shout for joy over their portion.Therefore in their land they will possess double [what they had forfeited];Everlasting joy will be theirs.For I, the Lord, love justice;I hate robbery with [e]a burnt offering.And I will faithfully reward them,And make an everlasting covenant with them.Then their offspring will be known among the nations,And their descendants among the peoples.All who see them [in their prosperity] will recognize and acknowledge themThat they are the people whom the Lord has blessed.10 I will rejoice greatly in the Lord,My soul will exult in my God;For He has clothed me with garments of salvation,He has covered me with a robe of righteousness,As a bridegroom puts on a [f]turban,And as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.11 For as the earth brings forth its sprouts,And as a garden causes what is sown in it to spring up,So the Lord God will [most certainly] cause righteousness and justice and praiseTo spring up before all the nations [through the power of His word].

Sunday, May 15, 2016

My Life is a Prayer - May 14, 2016

A journal entry from January.

Reminded again today.... I am not anyone else's Holy Spirit - and with that said, when we try to be we can push people completely away, when sometimes what is required is prayer for truth, knowledge and wisdom... on our part as well as for the other person.

GOD.... brought several to encourage me, pray with me.... and gave me space to lament. Thank You God, you are faithful in all moments.

DON'T LET YOUR CIRCUMSTANCES prevent you from seeking HIM!

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Friday, May 13, 2016

Thankful Life - May 13, 2016


"I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living." ~ Psalm 27:13 (New International Version)

Despite challenges, I have so much to be grateful for this day and in this life. In reflection of my thoughts over the years (through journal entries), I am so grateful for God in my life, first and foremost. I am also very grateful for my family, especially those who I spend the most time with.

But, it is not a 24/7 thankful FEST...

  • I lament
  • I grieve
  • I worry
  • I get discouraged
  • I disconnect from those that mean the most to me
  • I have down moments


But most of all, I have hope in my Father's promises. 

I have the best encouragers ever - a very special thank you to my daughter, who is also my sister in Christ, who helps me in so many ways, including being my nurse-maid. And, I am grateful for my granddaughter, who will someday know how her delivery into my life creates "new hope" daily.



 [We have seen God’s mercy and wisdom: how shall we respond?] With eyes wide open to the mercies of God, I beg you, my brothers, as an act of intelligent worship, to give him your bodies, as a living sacrifice, consecrated to him and acceptable by him. Don’t let the world around you squeeze you into its own mould, but let God re-mould your minds from within, so that you may prove in practice that the plan of God for you is good, meets all His demands and moves towards the goal of true maturity." ~Romans 12:1 (J.B. Phillips New Testament)

May 11 at 10:57am · (a recent lament)
There are days when I just don't feel part of anything. Chronic illness is more than life interrupted, it's relationships and responsibilities severed - not out of malice or uncaring attempts, but it just is. God is the constant, but I have to admit that in the experiences of each day, moment to moment, it can be quite isolating to say the least. Those who I held most dear for many years, just slipped out of my daily contact. And, I can reach deeper into my faith, praise God for all that He has done, be grateful for the good days, while I mourn the loss of relationships. As far as responsibilities, they are forcing me to live more simply - wondering how I was ever so busy in the first place. That in those times when my illness didn't hinder, why I didn't focus more on the relationships that were so important. We cannot control others, but we can control our reaction to things in this life. At the moment, and for quite some time, I am mourning so much loss and day to day is a thread. Understanding that I was the one relating... reaching out, communicating and being concerned for others - living for Christ, without regard for how I felt.

This past year has been a time of reducing so much, but taking on so much as well. I have no regrets, but expectations to continue this fight, to submit more completely to our Father in heaven and stand strong in the strength of the Holy Spirit. Is it easy? Not at all, and impossible on my own – but is expected through and in Christ.

After writing, I was reminded, as I am so often, I am not alone. My isolation is temporary.

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Wednesday, May 11, 2016

At Loss Today - May 11, 2016

There are days when I just don't feel part of anything. Chronic illness is more than life interrupted, it's relationships and responsibilities severed - not out of malice or uncaring attempts, but it just is. God is the constant, but I have to admit that in the experiences of each day, moment to moment, it can be quite isolating to say the least. Those who I held most dear for many years, just slipped out of my daily contact. And, I can reach deeper into my faith, praise God for all that He has done, be grateful for the good days, while I mourn the loss of relationships. As far as responsibilities, they are forcing me to live more simply - wondering how I was ever so busy in the first place. That in those times when my illness didn't hinder, why I didn't focus more on the relationships that were so important. We cannot control others, but we can control our reaction to things in this life. At the moment, and for quite some time, I am mourning so much loss and day to day is a thread. Understanding that I was the one relating... reaching out, communicating and being concerned for others - living for Christ, without regard for how I felt.

This past year has been a time of reducing so much, but taking on so much as well. I have no regrets, but expectations to continue this fight, to submit more completely to our Father in heaven and stand strong in the strength of the Holy Spirit. Is it easy? Not at all, and impossible on my own – but is expected through and in Christ.

Today, I want to pray for others who also suffer... who sense and experience the isolation of illness. I pray for hopeful times in prayer and worship, and to God be the glory in all the suffering.

Shawn Delia Boreta

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