Friday, August 12, 2011

Day 634 of Giving Thanks

I was looking back at some old writing, and came across this one... I had not shared it on the page yet, so thought I would tonight.

As I read through the first part of Genesis, I stopped and contemplated all the possibility of this beginning. I have been in some pretty deep and, frankly very much "out of my comfort zone" conversations with some people who believe very differently than I do, in fact other end of the spectrum "belief". And, as I continue to read, and with the love in my heart for my God, the one I whole heartedly believe is the creator of the heavens and the earth and all things, my heart breaks for a heart that is so hard that any form of light is shaded and shut off.

Before I became a Christian, I was full of light, an open heart to things spiritual - but you mention God and I became defensive dark and antagonistic. My life did not reflect a "God in it", according to me at the time. With failures and abuse, and wrong thinking, and wrong seeking I was totally dependent on what I could do.

I happened to see a statement yesterday on a friend's page about one of these uncomfortable discussions - and what catches my attention the most is when someone has faith in no faith, that there is an enormous need to sway one with faith to their side. To make them see how irrational they are by believing the unseen. Christians are seen as delusional or even crazy, half cocked, not all there, because what I feel or know to be true is not shared by them. I cannot judge the world because they "see" things differently or incompletely. Where is the hope? Where is the love? What is the appeal? A life of VOID, when compared to a life of fulfillment that comes from a perspective of so much more.

I scoffed, laughed and mocked all my friends and family who were "Christians", if not to their faces, behind the scenes and to what did that enhance my life. You know, those were times that I felt the worst about myself.

My personal claim is that if I am right, then God is pleased. If I am not (which believe me, I have no doubt at all), then all I have done is live a life of edifying others and living in a hope of so much more than a life of void and skepticism. And, truly that is what the "gotcha" was for me. "What if... what the bible says is true?" was my first question - opening the door, allowing God to infiltrate into that little gap. Then the wall would appear, and the light would shut down. My "mind" "reason of the unproven, most of the time" took over.

I love everyone. When I was younger and served in a restaurant, my daily goal was to get a smile from every table. And, in my mind, I never failed - does that mean everyone smiled? Actually I believe they did. I would imagine them leaving and getting into their car and chuckling at the "nice girl" who waited on them. The other side, is the cynical one "everyone is mean, unfriendly a major pain in the a_ _)" - and although these views are probably true, doesn't it just feel better to have the first outlook?

My gifting is compassionate care and relationships, loving people comes naturally. Edification no matter where they come from. But I do expect respect, as I will give it as well.

I can be completely battered and bruised, and just like a fighter, after binding the brokenness, salving the wounds, icing the injuries, I can go right back at it. And the more I know I am not alone, the more I know that my life is purposed, that I am a mighty woman of God, the more I can take on in the ring. The more rounds I can take and the stronger and tougher I become.

So, back to my reading in Genisis this morning. What else besides a compassionate, loving caring God would create us? How would we all be so individual and unique? A big bang did occur and it was when God said "Let there be light," and there was light."

       “So God created man in his own image,
       in the image of God he created him;
       male and female he created them.” ~Genesis 1:27

Or the world was made into existence with a boom, and random acts of atoms and molecules came together and created everything you see today….

Father, we live in a world of so much confusion – we know that there is one truth, a truth that has been over and over revealed. Lord we pray for the hearts that are hardened, that if there is movement to be made in softening their stance, their views that You move them. Almighty God, in Your presence I ask to be, confident in Your word, words relayed and lessons to absorb. Lord, I ask that I be strengthened in conviction through the Holy Spirit, that my understanding is SOLID, clear and perfect. Thank You Lord, for my life, my journey, my convictions and You in it.

Everything in Jesus’ name I pray, Amen.

© 2011 Giving Thanks Daily, Shawn Boreta

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