Today was a wonderful day with my husband. Chris said today that he is happy; and feels like we are on the same page and heading in the right direction. It was only six months ago that I wrote of devastation; a storm in my life that I thought would end much differently than it did.
Day 236 of Giving Thanks: “It has been a week of devastation and the storm keeps coming - and the waves have reached a truth I wanted to bury. I reach deep to see how I feel, and nothing is coming - I pray for clarity. Today is the first day I cannot reach down to find a substantial place of gratitude; one that will fill a void.”
Day 237 of Giving Thanks: “I cannot put words together to describe the storm I am in the middle of right now, for it is more than I can take, but one that I can endure because I have help. God is always with me, I have the word that I can go to at any time and I have some mighty people of God praying for me and lifting me up. “
I share this because I know that many are out there, in a marriage that is broken, lonely or painful – and everyone wants a great marriage. A great marriage is everything. I believe that no matter where you are, whatever you think, it's not too late to change your marriage. For me, I had to change.
· I had to be willing to allow God to change me.
· I had to be willing to let go of pride.
· I had to be willing to give up my ideas, to hear God’s ideas.
· I had to be willing to trust that God’s way is the best way.
· I had to be willing to stop hearing the voice of the enemy.
· I had to be willing to admit I could not do it on my own.
· I had to be willing to believe God’s promises.
"Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but withGod all things are possible.” ~Matthew 19:26 (New International Version)
Did you know that the enemy hates marriage? Did you know that the enemy will try to convince you of many things, including "it's too late", "you don't understand my situation".... God understands and knows exactly where I am, and He is always right on time. It was when I began to listen, to truly hear and apply what God was speaking into my life that my outlook changed. I know that He is speaking; and at times I must remember to call on Him and ask Him for my heart’s desire.
“Call to Me, and I will answer you, and show you great and mighty things, which you do not know.” ~Jeremiah 33:3 (New International Version)I am grateful that this love story continues, and is possible because of the love and faithfulness of my heavenly Father. I am grateful that when things looked the darkest, I saw the most light when I sought it. I am grateful that when I was in the middle of the storm, I held my ground; I believe God and I continue to pray for my marriage. I am grateful I believe in a miracle.