“Are You saying that I have to love the unlovely? How could You ask me to do that? It is painful, frustrating, unproductive and so darn uncomfortable.”
This is a conversation I had with God recently. It actually went on and on – and patiently, lovingly and through my tears, I heard His answer – “because I love you….” And really that was all I needed to hear. There are times when, even before I go before God, that I know the answer – and yet, I ask anyway. I complain about my circumstance anyway. It truly is about proper perspective – He died for me, one of the unlovely.
"And what is eternal life? It is knowing you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom you have sent.” ~John 17:3
In the mirror, searching my eyes for You, I am grateful that I do seek You, that my life is not void and without purpose. I am grateful that because I have You in my life, my life is full and purposeful. Lord, I am emptying myself so that I can be filled with Your light and purpose.
As I am convicted, the tears dry and leave no stain. And I am renewed, I am restored and I am refreshed in knowing that my pleas are heard. I am grateful that my time spent is self pity or dwelling in the past, is minor today. It is when I fully remember what I have, where I came from and what He has done, that I know true joy. And in these realizations through His love and tenderness, I can love the unlovely – because he loves me; one of the unlovely – and oh, how I am thankful.